Being busy is not an excuse

It’s been a while. My last entry was way back March 14 and it’s now the 28^th, 3 days before we hit the month of April. Honestly, I’ve been very busy and occupied with too many things. There’s this new laptop, which, unfortunately took my focus out from my daily Bible readings & devotionals (I haven’t confessed it yet, again, been busy thinking of some other things). I’ve wanted to have this device for so long and the excitement it brought me when it finally arrived was so great. So great that it caused me some sleepless nights, skipped meals, and lack of time for Him-this is the worst part of all. Another activity that took my focus off of my regular blogging activity is my tedious and well-planned Cebu trip. Yes, I know this might sound exaggerated, but it’s all worth it! The planning and countless itinerary revisions caused me to loose some of my precious time & some headaches (and a couple of my notebook’s pages.lol). These activities took a hold of my time and my mind out from what I should really be doing on my free time-and that is, meditating on His word and communicating with Him, through prayer.

I’am guilty and I don’t have an excuse for it. I was so thrilled with all the activities heading my way. I was excited with everything. I’m busy. I thought I deserved this. I thought I needed to have a break-not just from work, but with all the reading and meditating. It’s time for me to have fun!

Earlier today, I had the chance to read His Word again. Well, even when I was in Cebu, I was reading my Bible, but honestly, I did not understand much of it. I think it is because I’m not seeking Him during that time. Again, I’m preoccupied with so many things. It’s like I’m only reading it so that I could tell to myself that I’m not missing out on His word. So that He will be pleased with me, knowing that I’m reading His word even though I’m on a vacation (gosh, my stupidity is being emphasized here).

I really felt bad when I realized what I did for the past days. He didn’t deserve to be ignored, especially after giving me so many blessings, after giving me another year to enjoy this world, and after giving me so many reasons to be happy. No, He definitely deserved my time, my service, my commitment, & my life.

God knows my weaknesses, my limitations, the things or reasons that might caused me to sin or to be tempted. He can read my thoughts, my heart & He understands my feelings. He completely knows my capability, my dreams, my plans and He holds my future. These are just some of the wonderful things that our God can do. But despite of His greatness and omnipresence, we still forget that a being like him, who longs for our time and our heart, is in existence. He is real. He is alive.

I don’t want the time to come when I will just remember praying and reading His Word when I’m in deep trouble, or experiencing depression or heartache. I don’t want to call upon the Lord only when I’m in terrible situation. But instead, I want to remember God all the days of my life. When I’m happy, excited, thankful, teary-eyed, hungry, nervous, joyful, alone, sad, contented, etc.

My prayer is that God will teach me to love Him more than anyone or anything in this world. To give me the boldness & courage to share the Good News to those who are willing to receive it, and to give my life in service to others, just like what Jesus did.

I know God will be with me every step of the way. He will never forget me. He will never take a break or will go on a vacation. He’s with me 24/7, 365 days.